Life's a bitch, and then you go to a concert.

Life sucks sometimes. I found out on Monday that my friend Shevey got knifed and killed by her boyfriend. I still can't believe that she's gone. It's fucked up. So, yeah, fuck April. My girlfriend also dumped me a few weeks beforehand.

I've been drowning out the pain with Dissection's Beyond the Horizon and God Dethroned's Swallow the Spikes.



These songs are fucking incredible. While listening to Beyond the Horizon, I feel as if I'm wittnessing the end of time. I never really appreciated it until now. I would post a video of Swallow the Spikes, but the fucker who uploaded it disabled it. Asshole.

Well, I'm going to see The Haunted on Wednesday night, and I'm fucking psyched. I figure I might say what the hell and start hunting for a new girl. Someone who won't fucking make me quit smoking weed. I'm not going to count on anything, though. I never was the wittiest fucker in the shed.

So, yeah. The memorial service for Shevey is on Tuesday, so I'm going to celebrate her life, and my moving on, with The Haunted. Sounds like a great fucking plan to me. Also, I'm switching to Kool cigarettes, away from my favorite Marlboro Reds. Kools were Shev's cigarettes, and lately I've liked menthols.

Before I move on to politics, I'd like to tell everyone (so fucking many) who reads this about a local band that I'm a huge band - Apothys. Self-proclaimed "Blackened progressive death metal". They kick some serious ass. Here's a video of a concert I was at. The song is called "Empyrean Unrest". I'm the dude in the bottom right corner headbanging out of rhythm.





On the political side, I've recently found out that Israel is finally growing some fucking balls and preparing to bomb Iran's nuclear sites. America has way too much invested in the middle east, so much, in fact, that our Allies in the middle east want us to do all the fucking work for them.

It's time that foriegn countries stop tattle telling on their neighbors to us. We're not fucking superman. Take care of you own shit, and we might help you out, but we're not going to do your dirty work for you because everyone already hates us. We have too much shit to take care of in our own country at the moment.

In this economy, with all these fucking bailouts and bullshit, we can not physically afford to help them out much more than we are right now. We're how far in debt? 11 TRILLION DOLLARS. I feel shitty when I bum 20 bucks from a friend. And we're out 11 trillion? How is it that we can spend money that we don't have? It doesn't make any logical sense.

God damn I can't wait for that concert. I'll leave you with this video, and ignore the video. It's gay as fuck, but the song kicks ass.

The beauty of Dark Funeral.

I purchased an album by them a while ago, but never really took the time to listen to it. The album, The Secrets of the Black Arts by Dark Funeral, is so incredible that I've recently kicked myself in the face for not listening to it. The main hit on the album, "Shadows over Transylvania", is one of the most completed black metal songs I've heard in quite a while. The drums aren't overpowering with sole double bass, and speaking of, I can actually hear the bass, and the guitars slow down every once in a while to let the other instruments shine. It's wonderful.

The vocals are incredible. When I listen to this song and close my eyes, it's as if I'm watching a movie, and the vocalist is the narrator. It's that good. But don't worry, "Shadows over Transylvania" isn't the only good song on the album. Every song is tailored to fit with the mood that the album promotes, but "Shadows" does the best job.

If you've never heard this album, and you like black metal bands like Immortal, old Bathory and Emperor, you would love this. This album is a work of art, my friends, and you can get it for only 99 cents at www.legalsounds.com. Just thought I'd let you all know what music thing I use. It's like itunes, but, it's not crazy expensive.

Revelations of a simple mind.

I was striking a match tonight and something very odd happened. Nothing. I had left the box out in the rain, and the moisture must have impeded it from lighting. Now, I was very frustrated, as I was in desperate need of a cigarette, and the damn match wouldn't catch! But as I was staring at it, something shocking happened: it lit.

I began to ponder on this. How could this have happened? What caused the sulpher to combust a few seconds after being struck? I could not, for the life of me, understand what had happened. Perhaps there was one place on the head that was affected by the friction, but it took it a moment to pass that along to the others. I will never know why this happened.

I began to think about the relevance of what had just happened, and I had a revelation on perceptions. I knew for a fact in those few moments that my attempt to light the match had failed. I was so sure that I would have bet my life on it. I knew that this was the case, and was so sure about it.

Perhaps this is the case with so many things. Life will always throw curveballs. No matter how confident you are that something is one way, it very well may be the complete opposite. This reminded me of a quote from the Enter the Matrix video game. In the beginning, Niobe and Ghost are entering the Matrix, and Ghost begins to check his guns to make sure everything is in working order. Niobe is confused.

Niobe: Why do you do that?
Ghost: Do what?
Niobe: Check your guns.
Ghost: You never know.
Niobe: This is a program, they're loaded the same every time.
Ghost: Hume teaches us that no matter how many times you drop a stone and it falls to the floor, you never know what'll happen the next time you drop it. It might fall to the floor, but then again it might float to the ceiling. Past experience never proves the future.
Niobe: So...?
Ghost: So, you never know.

I feel that that convorsation speaks for itself.